March 14, 2018 at 9:06 pm #2708
Acharya Sujatin (temple host)Moderator
Dharmavidya writes: I am at Vajra’s. Here the day starts with meditation. I sit. How does one meditate? I have been doing it for decades. I must have sat thousands of hours now – but how really should one meditate? I feel even more ignorant now than when I started all those years ago. Much more ignorant, in fact. Then i was proud of my so good lotus posture, which my doctor now no longer allows me to do! In those days I thought I knew what I was doing.
I reflect upon this and offer my history and my ignorance up to the Buddhas. They always receive everything happily. I feel emptied and refreshed. I hear a car drive past outside. My mind turns to all the people getting ready for the day, hurrying to work, often full of stress and worries. I embrace them with my thought and offer all this mental stress again to the Buddha. He takes this great bundle in his hands so delicately and lovingly and I realise that in the core of every worry there is a nub of love, a little jewel sparkling. The Buddhas are collecting these jewels to decorate their lands of bliss. The sparkling light cascades down and I am filled with rainbows.
Yet even in the midst of this great grace I notice there is a pain in my shoulder. Bodies are such. Yesterday it was a sore eye, today a stiff shoulder, tomorrow it will be something else. Even the good food I have eaten in the last couple of days is now quietly complaining in my stomach. And so it is for everybody. Not only do they have so many worries about work and relationships, goals and losses, they also have bodies that are never completely at ease. I offer all this physical pain and suffering to the Buddhas. Again they receive it with such wonderful delicacy for in the heart of every item there is life, like a diamond hidden in the mud. Such radiance.
The rainbow light again descends, deepening my peace. I sit in the calm, the, as-we-say, “tranquil abiding”. I feel deeply at peace, yet I also feel tears of joy. I can feel them in my throat and pricking at my eyes. These too I offer up, and I hear those words from the end of the ordination ceremony when the bodhisattvas say, “If this is so, then you are the same as we…” and I know that this is a universal truth of life, that we are touched and moved by love. However much it may be submerged by seeming troubles, there is a truth that endures which is the truth of love and compassion, and this is the Dharma.
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March 15, 2018 at 10:23 am #2709
Rev. Satya Robyn (temple host)Moderator
Tears of gratitude here too.
March 15, 2018 at 7:26 pm #2711
And here too. I’m just coming out off such a stressy day full off wories….
November 4, 2018 at 9:04 pm #3121
Jeaunice Tribue BurnetteParticipant
I struggled to meditate on my own for years, because I lacked a proper instructor. How very silly. Still, I discovered that I shouldn’t meditate due to my acute mental illness. That is why I am so very grateful for Amida’s saving grace. I would be very lost without the nembutsu. I rely on Other power now. I know that this post is kind of off topic, but I just wanted to share how truly grateful I am for my practice and the work and teachings of Dharmavidya.
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